This will be a sad fic, I tell you this in advance. It is a fic I had the idea for when those fake spoiler rumors were going around. It begins around the current part of season 8, also lets just assume that the whole Rachel/Joey thing has been resolved.
Ross and Rachel are at a Hardware store in the paint asisle.
ROSS: ok, how about this color
RACHEL: thats right no. I already told you Im not painting my daughters room pink
ROSS: its not pink, its salmon
RACHEL: Ross, face it that is pink, no matter how you look at it, its still pink
ROSS: fine, what color do you want to use
RACHEL: well I like the idea of doing multi colors.
RACHEL: I was thinking we could do one wall a light green, one blue, one purple and one a pink color
ROSS: so you do want pink
RACHEL: one wall pink, Ross not the entire room
ROSS: you know what just pick whatever you want, anything is fine with me
RACHEL(picks up various cans of paint) all right Im ready, lets go
ROSS: youre sure you have everything, we wont have to come back here again in an hour
RACHEL: no, Im sure we have it all
ROSS: ok, cause I dont want a reapeat of yesterday
RACHEL: for the last time, Im sorry I made you go to the baby store 4 times yesterday
ROSS: Ok, well just dont let it happen again
RACHEL: yes sir
(they look at each other and laugh)
ROSS: come on, lets pay for this and get home(leans down and pats Rachels tummy) Hi there baby girl, youre mommy and I are going to start painting your room today, so it will be ready when you come next month
Ross and Rachels apartment the two of them are in the nursery painting, one wall is halfway covered with blue paint.
ROSS: this sure is some nice paint, looks real pretty on the walls huh
RACHEL: yeah, you know where it would look even prettier though
ROSS: uh, where?
RACHEL: (giggling) oh I dont know, how about here(jumps at him and streaks his face with paint)
ROSS: oh, you , you ok prepare for war(lunges at her and splashes paint on her)
RACHEL: oh my god you got my shirt dirty, Ross
ROSS: oh I am so sorry, here let me try to clean it off ok(starts dabbing at the shirt with a white paper towel)
RACHEL: yeah youre going to have to pay for that, (looks at him and smiles)
ROSS: Oh I will pay, I will, Ill pay whatever it costs to get it fixed
RACHEL: No, I was thinking you need to pay by(picks up the paint can and dumps it over his head) having blue hair
ROSS: Rachel Karen Green, you are so dead
RACHEL: yeah, well youd have to catch me first(starts running around the room) cant catch me, ha ha, cant catch me(Ross lunges at her and she ducks out of his way) oh, you are soo slow
ROSS: oh really, well then I must not be too slow if I can do.. this(grabs her around the waste and starts tickling her, while taking the paintbrush and rubbing paint up her arms
RACHEL: Ross, Ross, stop stop(shes yelling but also laughing hysterically at the same time)
ROSS: hmm, look at your nose, so clean, so unmarked I think I needs some color to it(dabs her nose with the brush)
RACHEL: ok Mr Geller, you asked or it, this means war(advances towards him with a can of purple paint)
ROSS: oh, adding more color to the equation are we(reaches for the brush and grabs her around the waist-well as well as he can since she is 8 months pregnant) she tries to turn from him and he spins her around so theyre looking at each other-they gaze into each others eyes for a minute and then step apart
RACHEL: so I guess we should clean up or something
ROSS: yeah, we probably should
RACHEL: so whos going to scrub the paint off the carpet
ROSS: I will, I know it hurts your back to bend over too much, why dont you go take a shower and get cleaned off
RACHEL: all right
ROSS: Hey Rach
ROSS: I was just thinking, theres not much in the house right now to eat and since we are going to be getting cleaned up maybe we could go out to dinner
RACHEL: yeah, yeah that would be fun
RACHEL: yeah, that sounds great
The Restaurant-Ross and Rachel are sitting at a table, Ross is wearing Black pants and a nice royal blue top, Rachel is wearing a white top with flounced sleeves(like the pink one she wore in TOW Monica and Chandlers wedding) and a black skirt(maternity of course)
ROSS: this is nice
RACHEL: yeah it is, its nice that we can finally do this
ROSS: you mean eat? I think weve done that before
RACHEL: no, I mean eat together, alone like this, you know without it being all weird and awkward.
ROSS: yeah this is nice, really nice(looks at her adoringly and smiles)
ROSS: what, what?
RACHEL: that smile
ROSS: Oh I was just thinking how glad I am that we are still friends, even after all the stuff
RACHEL: yeah we had a lot of stuff huh?
ROSS: yep, sure did. Lots of history
RACHEL: thats an understatement, sometimes I cant believe were really having a baby
ROSS: im glad though, I mean this is going to be the most loved baby ever and I cant imagine anyone Id rather have this baby with
RACHEL: Oh my god, Ross that is so sweet, you always were sweet though
ROSS: you really think that, even after all thats happened
RACHEL: yeah, yeah I do, I Never stopped thinking it, even when I wanted to hate you and when I was so unbeliebably pissed at you, I still thought you were the sweetest man Id ever known and I, I..never mind
ROSS: you what
RACHEL: (softly) I still had feelings for you
ROSS: do you now?
RACHEL: (stares at him) yeah, yeah I do
ROSS: wow(gazes into her eyes)
RACHEL: you know what, just ignore what I said, it was just my messed up hormones talking
ROSS: no, Im glad you said it, Ive felt the same way
RACHEL: you have
ROSS: yes, I have for a long time now
ROSS: yeah wow(they gaze at each other and Rachel leans in towards him and they begin to kiss)
RACHEL: that was nice
ROSS: oh real nice
RACHEL: want to do it again
RACHEL: so are we back together
ROSS: well, lets just take things slow, we can go on dates and all but lets not rush anything to fast
RACHEL: I agree, I mean as much as I love the sex with you(evidence right here-points to her stomach) I think we should keep our separate rooms
ROSS: yeah, we dont want to rush to much at this
RACHEL: so what do we do now
ROSS: how about a movie
RACHEL: ok, I can do that, I like movies
ROSS: I know
RACHEL: oh Professor Geller you are so wise
ROSS: yep, now come on miss soon to be mother of my baby girl
its now a couple weeks later the two of them are still together and really happy, as they decided they have taken things slow. Everyone is really happy they are back together and eagerly awaiting the birth of the baby in about two weeks
ROSS: Rachel, are you ready for the Drs appt(walks into her room and sees her lying on the bed with a damp cloth on her head) do you have another headache
RACHEL: yeah, or maybe its the same one I dont know. Ill be ready in a minute though I just need to get my coat(stands up and falls back onto the bed, her head in her hands)
ROSS: Rach, are you ok? Here let me help you(Stands next to her, puts his arms around her and helps her stand up) she rises and kind of stumbles against him
ROSS: you ok?
RACHEL: yeah I just got really dizzy for a minute. Ill be fine, come on lets go
ROSS: you sure youll ok
RACHEL: yeah I will be
DR: so everything looks great, In about two weeks your new arrival should be here
RACHEL: what about the headaches and the swelling in my ankles
DR: totally normal nothing at all to worry about
RACHEL: oh great, I know it sounded dumb but I was a bit concerned
ROSS: yeah I have to say Im relieved too, thanks Doctor
(Ross and Rachel leave and go outside)
ROSS: so two weeks huh
RACHEL: yeah, two weeks, hey you know what
RACHEL: I could realllly go for some ice cream right now
ROSS: well Ben and Jerrys is right over there(points to the store)
(They go inside)
RACHEL: hi, Id like a cup of Butter Pecan and Peach melba ice cream with caramel sauce over the top
ROSS: and Ill have a Chocolate Chip Sugar cone
(they sit down and start eating)
RACHEL: ooh Ross, you what would taste soo good on this
ROSS: No, but I have a feeling youre going to tell me
RACHEL: this would taste soo good with olives on it
ROSS: green or black
ROSS: Ok Ill be right back
RACHEL: what, youre just going to leave me here, where the hell are you going
ROSS: Ill be right back(runs outside and comes in a few minutes later) here you go(hands her a jar of black olives)
RACHEL: awww, oh you are just the sweetest thing ever, I love you
RACHEL: I said I love you
ROSS: Do you mean it
RACHEL: yes, yes I do, I love you Ross Geller
ROSS: and I love you Rachel Green
(they start kissing)
3 days later everyone is at CP Monicas eyes are red and she looks really upset
PHOEBE: Mon, sweetie whats wrong
MONICA: its its(starts crying) Rachel and Phoebe both hug her
CHANDLER: we went to the Dr earlier today and(looks at Monica, do you want me to tell them)
MONICA: go ahead
CHANDLER: well weve been trying for awhile now to have a baby, as Im sure youve all guessed. Today we found out that we cant have children
MONICA: that I cant have children, that my insides are messed up and I cant have children, that well never have a baby(sobs and runs out of the coffe house)
CHANDLER: I keep telling her its not her fault, that I dont care and we can adopt but it doesnt make a difference
PHOEBE: just give her some time
ROSS: Yeah I know my sister she just needs to let everthing sink in, shell be fine
RACHEL: I feel so bad, I mean here I am pregnant about to have a baby, I wish there was something I could do for her. Id do anything to make her happy
One week later Ross and Rachels apartment:
ROSS: so do you want to watch tv
ROSS: want to play a game, we could play cards, I could beat you at War
RACHEL: no, no I dont want to play cards Ross, I dont want to watch a movie and I dont want to listen to another stupid discovery channel lecture again
ROSS: I will be so happy when this child is born, youve been so crabby all week
RACHEL: Im sorry ok, but you try carrying around a big load like this and knowing that any time now youre going to have to squeeze something the size of a watermemlon out of a whole the size of a pea.
ROSS: ok, did not need the imagry
RACHEL: Im going to go take a walk(walks outside and down the hall towards the elevator, she stops suddenly in the middle of the hall as water begins dripping from her) Ross, Ross, Rossssssss
ROSS: what, geesh could you yell any louder
RACHEL: Ross, my water broke
RACHEL: My water broke Im in labor
ROSS: Oh my god!!!
RACHEL: Get my bag and call the others
ROSS: ok you wait right there, dont move
RACHEL: yeah cause I was thinking of taking a quick trip to Aruba
ROSS(runs into the apartment and grabs her bag, runs out the door and remembers he forgot to call the others. He runs back in, trips over the chair and grabs for the phone) Monica, yeah, its me, Rachel is in labor were on our way to the hospital now, ok, yeah, yeah Well see you there
The hospital, Monica, Chandler, Phoebe and Joey are in the waiting room Ross and Rachel are in the delivery room waiting
DR: ok youre about 4 centimeters so theres a while to go Ill be back in about an hour to see how youre doing
ROSS: how are you doing sweetie
RACHEL: fine, except Im starting to get a headache again
RACHEL: yeah, Ill be glad when you are born angel girl(looks at her stomach)
ROSS: So what about a name
RACHEL: well I really like the name Madison(A.N: I know I used that name in my last fic, but I really really like it)
ROSS: Madison, Maddy, little Maddy , yeah I like that.
RACHEL: you do, oh yayy, I finally found something we can agree on
ROSS: what about a middle name
RACHEL: I dont know, can we please talk about that later(turns her head to look at Ross and screams in pain)
ROSS: Rachel, whats wrong
RACHEL: its this headache, its so bad, It hurts to move
ROSS: Im going go see if I can find someone, Ill be right back
RACHEL: uh huh
(Ross leaves the room and rushes to the nurses station)
ROSS: excuse me, I need help
NURSE: yes sir?
ROSS: its my wife shes in room 217 and is in labor but she has a really bad headache is there anything she can be given, she says it hurts her to even more
NURSE: someone will come down in a few minutes and look her over
ROSS: thank you so much(returns to the room)Hey sweetie, are you ok?
RACHEL: No, Ross somnethng is wrong.
ROSS: sweetie its just a headache youve had them before youll be fine
RACHEL: No, no this is different it hurts all over and I cant see, everything is blurry this isnt right, something is wrong, please get someone Ross, please
ROSS: the nurse said someone would be right here, but Ill go ask again
RACHEL: thank you
ROSS: (to a nurse walking by) do you know where Dr Cooper is(Im just making up a name)
NURSE: hes in delivery room 4, why?
ROSS: my wife needs to see him right away, something is wrong with her and she needs to talk to him
NURSE: all right Il send him right in
ROSS(goes back to Rachel) the dr is coming in a couple minutes sweetie
RACHEL: uh huh. Ross
ROSS: yes, oh my god Rachel, whats wrong
RACHEL: (shes covered in sweat and breathing heavily, her face is shockingly pale and shes biting on her lower lip) I cant breathe Ross, it hurts, Ross It hurts.
ROSS: its ok, sweetie its going to be ok(he leans over and smooths her hair back out of her face, and with is free hand he grabs ahold of her hand) Im going to buzz for someone to get in her right now(reaches for the buzzer and is about to press it when the Dr walks in)
DR: all righty then what seems to be the problem here
ROSS: Oh thank god youre here, there is something wrong with Rachel, shes having problems breathing and has a severe headache
DR: well lets see what we have here(begins to examine her) ok Rachel, this here is going to check your hearbeat, and let me just slip this on your arm, to check your blood pressure.(looks at the gage) oh my god, (Calls down on his intercome) I need a nurse in her stat and delivery room 2 opened up, prepare for emergency C section now!!(the room suddenly bustles with activity as people rush inside and lift Rachel onto a Gurney)
RACHEL: Ross, Ross whats happening
ROSS: its ok sweetie, everything is going to be fine. (to the Dr.) whats going on
DR: Youre wifes blood pressure and heart rate is extremely high shes showing signs of ecampsia and we need to perform a C section right away.
ROSS: Rachel, youre going to be fine, dont worry just thing that in a few minutes well have our baby.(runs over to her and grabs her hand as she is wheeled from the room) I love you so much Rachel, you are so brave and so strong and Ill be there as soon as I can, to see you and our baby
RACHEL(as shes wheeled away) I love you Ross
DR: Mr Geller, I need to ask you soemting and Im sorry there isntmore time but I need an answer right away.
ROSS: what, what??
DR: If it comes down to it, would you rather we save Rachel or the baby
ROSS: Save Rachel, save her, do whatever it takes but let her live. You, you dont think its that serious do you
DR: its hard to tell with these cases, usually they end up fine, but there is always that chance, but I wouldnt worry to much, I just had to ask, in case something does happen
ROSS: all right,and thank you
(DR runs off to help with the surgery)
ROSS: (somewhat to himself) This cant be happening, it cant. Shes going to be fine calm down, Ross shell be fine. She has to be-shes the only women Ive ever loved.(he reaches into his pocket and takes out a small black box, he opens it and looks inside) I cant lose you Rachel, I cant I need you in my life-forever.
(about a half hour or so goes by)
DR: Mr Geller?
ROSS: yes, yes(jumps to his feet) how is she, hows the baby, can I see them??
DR: the baby is fine, Rachel is doing ok too. You have a 6 pound 4 oz baby girl, they are in recovery room 234, you can go ahead and see them.
ROSS: great great(shakes the drs hand) thank you, thank you so much. Oh can you do me a favor and tell my friends, there in the waiting room
DR: of course
ROSS: (enters the room where Rachel is) hey sweetie
RACHEL: (looks up from the bed and smiles at Ross) Hey you
ROSS: so, we have a daugher
RACHEL: yeah, we have a daughter. (Starts crying softly) oh my god we have a daughter
ROSS: (takes her hand and begins rubbing it) I was so scared Rachel
RACHEL: I know, I was too, I was too
ROSS: but its ok now, we have our baby girl and everthing is going to be fine.
RACHEL: Yeah, Ross, I (suddenly Rachel tenses up and suddenly begins violently seizing)
ROSS(runs to the door) Help, Help, oh my god somebody help us, Help, help
NURSE: whats the problem
ROSS: its my girfriend, shes having a seizure
NURSE: (runs into the room and over to Rachels bed) she leans over Rachel and hits the call button, I need help in room 234 Stat(suddenly people rush in the room-and begin working on Rachel, Ross is backed into the corner a look of absolute terror on his face)
DR: Just stop, everybody just stop, its no use(everybody looks sadly at Rachel and then over at Ross as they step away from her bed)
ROSS: what, what are you doing, help her, help her god dammit
DR: theres nothing we can do, shes in a coma
ROSS: oh my oh my god. Shes going to be ok, right(looks at the doctor with fear etched on his face)
DR: (looks at Ross with compassion and signs) no, no shes not going to be ok. The condition she had, Eclampisia it works in weird ways, some women can have it and be perfectly fien and then others like Rachel, well it causes their systems to shut down, her organs have already begun failing
ROSS: then theres no hope at all
ROSS: how long
DR: I cant really tell but Id say its a matter of hours
ROSS: I was going to propose to her you know. (takes out the ring and holds it in his hand-tears falling down his cheeks and he begins to sob as he speaks) she was the only women I ever loved, we had the hardest time getting it together, I screwed up and did stupid things, she did some stupid things, we fought all the time but it came together, it all came togther,. I cant be with anyone else I just cant.
DR: Im sorry sir, Ill give you some privacy
ROSS: could you tell my friends please, and tell them, tell them I want them in here with me
DR: of course-and once again Im so sorry
ROSS: thank you, I know you did all you could and thank you for that.(the Dr leaves and Ross walks over to Rachels bed) Rachel, sweetie(takes her hand in his) I am so sorry this happened, you did not deserve any of this. From the moment I first saw you I knew you were the one I wanted to spend all my life with. You mean the world to me, you are my everthing Rachel dear. Youre my sun, my moon, the stars in my sky. You make me a better person and you have brought such joy to my life. I don t know how my life is going to be without you. How am I going to wake up every morning and not see you there beside me, I dont know how Im going to have the strength to carry through but maybe Maddy will help me through this. When I see her Ill see you in her and when I see her smile Ill see you smiling too.
There is nobody that I would rather have as my wife, so I want you to have this, because in my heart we will always be together(slips the ring on her finger and gently kisses her on the lips-he steps back and continues holding her hand as the numbers on the heart monitor drop lower and lower and soon all that is left is the steady whine of the flatline)
MONICA: Ross, oh my god we just heard how is she
ROSS: (turns to them crying) shes gone, oh my god you guys shes gone ,the only women Ive ever loved, shes gone(runs across the room and throws himself into Monicas arms sobbing hysterically)
MONICA: (hugging Ross) No, No, NO, No, (she looks at Chandler with tears streaming down her face-he looks at her, his eyes beginning to tear and wraps his arms around her.
ROSS: (lets go of Monica) you, you shoud go to your husband(steps away as she collapses into Chandlers arms and the two of them begin to hug each other and rock back and forth)
JOEY: Phoebe, Pheebs(looks at her with this sad haunted look on his face)
PHOEBE: Shh, Joey its ok, its ok
JOEY: no its not, shes gone Pheebs shes gone, why, why did this happen
PHOEBE: I dont know Joey, I dont know(hugs him as they begin to cry)
MONICA: (pulls away from Chandler and walks over to Rachel) she looks so peaceful, (bends down and strokes her cheek) Rachel sweetie, I love you so much, and Im going to miss you, I promise Ill never forget you and well all help Ross with the baby, you dont need to worry.
NURSE: Um, Im sorry to do this, I know this is a hard time, but we need to get the body cleaned up
ROSS: its all right, I understand
NURSE: do you know who you want to perform the service
ROSS: um, um..no I dont. Mon, who did the service for Nana
MONICA: I dont know off hand but I can call mom and get the info
ROSS: Mom, yeah I, I still have to tell her what happened, I dont even have the number for the hotel where her and dad went
MONICA: dont worry Ross I have it
PHOEBE: yeah and well help you pick out something for the funeral.
CHANDLER: yeah come on Man, lets get you home(Puts his arms around Ross, who has once again broken down in tears) and begins to lead him out of the room
NURSE: Mr Geller
NURSE: Do you want to take this ring with you, or do you want it to stay on her finger
MONICA: what ring, I though she took off all her rings because her fingers were swelling
ROSS: She did
MONICA: then what ring is this(leans over and looks at the ring) Oh my god, Ross, did you..
ROSS: Yes, Yes I was going to ask her to marry me, I was going to propose to her after the baby was born and
JOEY: oh man, Im so sorry
(everyone leaves the room)
ROSS: you guys, wait a minute
CHANDLER: what is it man?
ROSS: I want to go see Madison
MONICA: is that what you named her?
ROSS: Yes Madison, Maddy Geller, thats the name we picked, we coudldnt decide on a middle name, we were going to pick that once she was born, but now I know what it has to be, no other name will work. Madison Rachel Geller
PHOEBE: (smiles sadly) Its perfect Ross
(they go to the obervation window and see Maddy lying in her isolette, she has dark blond hair and green eyes and her little fist is in her mouth)
MONICA: oh my god, look at her
ROSS: she has her eyes, she has Rachels eyes and nose
(they gaze at the baby for a few more minutes)
NURSE: excuse me, Mr Geller?
NURSE: would you like to hold your daughter
ROSS: yes, yes I would
(the nurse returns and places her in his arms)
ROSS: hi baby girl, Im your daddy and Im going to take such good care of you, Im so glad youre here with us. You look a lot like your mommy. She couldnt be here to meet you, but she wanted to so much, she loved you, she loved you more than anything in the world. (leans down and gently kisses Maddy on the cheek, as his eyes fill with tears)
The next morning, Ross spent the night at Monica and Chandlers on their couch
(also I know that the words to this song are not exactly perfect in each line, but for the most part it fits for this next part of the fic)
Sitting here wasted and wounded, at this old piano. Trying hard to capture the moment this morning I dont know. Cause A bottle of Vodka still lodged in my head, and some blond gave me nightmares, I think that shes still in my bed and I dream about movies they wont make of me when Im dead
Ross lies on the couch sleeping, during the night he had gotten up and raided Chandler and Monicas liquor cabinet. Unable to deal with the nightmares plaguing his sleep.
Liqour bottles litter the floor and he keeps waking up and reaching out his hands to feel the space beside him, searching for Rachel and breaking down into tears as he remembers
Monica and Chandlers room- the two of them lay in each others arms, Monica sobs as Chandler wraps his arms around her and pulls her close and kisses her forehead.
CHANDLER: its going to be ok
MONICA: no, no its not she was my best friend, my best friend. She did not deserve this, why didnt the Drs see this was going to happen, couldnt they have seen signs or warned us. Its not fair, its not fair(she yells as she punches her fist into the pillow)
CHANDLER: I know, I know(holds her as they both drift off into troubled sleep)
Monica and Chandlers living room:
Ross stands up and stumbles across the room, he grabs at a half empty whisky bottle and starts gulping it down, then suddenly collapses onto the floor and begins to sob hysterically.
MONICA(stands up from her bed and walks across the room
CHANDLER: hold on, Ill come with you
(they walk out into the living room)
MONICA: (walks over and puts her arm around Ross) shh, its ok, everything
ROSS: I miss her, I just miss her so much. Why did this happen, why??? Why her? Its not fair, its just not fair. God Dammit its not fair(screams this as he grabs the bottle and hurls it across the room)
MONICA: Ross, were going to help you through this
CHANDLER: yeah man, anyway we can
ROSS: can you guys leave me alone please, I just need to be alone
ROSS: get out, just get out
CHANDLER: ok, were going, if you need us well be in our room.
ROSS: uh huh
With an Ironclad Fist I wake up and French kiss the morning
While some marching band keeps its own beat in my head while were talking
About all of the things that I long to believe about love and the truth
And what you mean to me, and the truth is youre all that I need
Ross wakes up with a hangover and walks into the kitchen, grabs a glass of water and swallows a couple asprin. He then walks back across the floor and collapses on the couch and begins to cry.
I wanna lay you down on a bed of roses
For tonight Id sleep on a bed of nails.
I wanna be just as close as, the Holy Ghost is
And lay you down, on a bed of roses.
Its now a couple days later and everyone is at the Cemetary for Rachels funerel(since I assume she is Jewish and I know nothing about Jewish Funerels, just say the vistttion and ceremonly already happened and everyone is at the gravesite now) Family, Friends etc.. everone is dressed in dark colors and its drizzling outside, Baby Madison(Maddy) is there and is being held by various people.
Everyone steps away from the grave as the service is concluded, Ross lingers and falls to his knees and gently kisses a red rose before laying it down on top of the casket.
Joey brushes tears from his eyes and grabs Phoebes hand as she begins to sob, the two of them look over at Monica and Chandler who come over and stand next to them.
Well Im so far away and each step I take is on my way home
A kings ransom in dimes id give each night just to see through this payphone
Still I run out of time or its hard to get through
Til the bird on the wire flies me back to you Ill just close my eyes and whisper, baby blind love is true.
Its now three months later. Monica, Chandler, Joey and Phoebe stil miss Rachel and are sad/upset bout her death but are beginning to get on with their lives. Ross has Madison with him, but most of the time he takes her to Monica and Chandlers or to her grandparents, because hes unable to deal with her, on top of his grief
I wanna lay you down on a bed of roses
For tonight Id sleep on a bed of nails
I wanna be just as close as, the Holy Ghost is
And lay you down, on a bed of roses
Madison is crying loudly in her crib. Ross is asleep in his bed, he rises and goes towards the nursery.
ROSS: Hey Maddy, its ok, dont cry your daddies here.
(he picks her up and begins to rock her back and forth and softly cries as he looks into her eyes, the same color green as her moms)
Maddy continues crying and Ross is unable to calm her down
ROSS: I wish your mom was here, shed know what to do.(he turns and looks at a picture of him and Rachel taken at Monicas 30th birthday party) Oh Rachel why, why did you have to leave me he murmers as he begins to sob along with his daughter
Monica and Chandlers
CHANDLER: how long are we watching Madison for, its almost 11 pm
MONICA: I dont know, all I know is Ross came over and asked if I would watch her
CHANDLER: hes been doing that a lot lately
MONICA: I know, its been 3 months and hes not getting any better
CHANDLER: I Know, I miss her so much, every day I wake up and I think hey maybe Ill see if Rachel wants to have lunch after work or I wonder what new fashion find Rachel will talk about today and then I remember. But little by little Im getting more and more used to her being gone
MONICA: I know, at first I couldnt accept it, I thought it was just a horrible nightmare and now Im used to the idea and I know I have to accept it.
CHANDLER: I think Ross needs help, he just cant accept that she is gone, he needs help for him and Madison, he isnt helping her at all being like this
MONICA: I know, but he refuses to listen to anyone
The hotel bar hangover whiskys gone dry
The barkeepers wigs crooked and shes given me the eye
I might have said yeah, but I laughed so hard I think I died
Ross is in a bar sitting on a bar stool, empty glasses in front of him. He stares over at a man and women sitting near him holding hands, and grabs a glass of beer and chugs it down.
Its now a couple hours later, and the bar is ready to close. Ross stands up unsteadily and the bartender asks if he is ok. He looks at the bartender and starts laughing hysterically. The bartender tells him to sit down and that he will call a cab.
Ross stumbles up to the door of Monica and Chandlers apartment at 3 am and bangs on the door
Monica answers and tries to convince him to come back later for Madison he refuses and pushes past Monica to get to his daughter
CHANDLER: Man, youre drunk ok, you need to go home and sleep it off, Madison is fine here for the night
ROSS: go to hell, Chandler, just go to hell. You will not keep me from my daughter I lost Rachel, I will not lose her.
MONICA: Ross, look at yourself, you dont eat, you havent showered in god knows how long and you constantly drink, what kind of a father are you being?
ROSS: give me my daugher(grabs the baby and leaves)
When you close your eyes, know Ill be thinking about you
While my mistress she calls me to stand in her spotlight again
Tonight, I wont be alone, but you know that dont mean Im not lonely
Ive got nothing to prove for its you that Id die to defend
Ross lays Madison down in her crib and collapses on his bed, his mind swirling with thoughts of Rachel, of how his life should have been and of what Monica and Chandler had said about him and Madison. He stands up and makes his way over to her crib
ROSS: Hey Baby girl, listen tomorrow I am going to tell your aunt and uncle that they were right, Im not in any condition to be a father right now. Before she died your mommy said something to me and I want to do this for her. (leans over and kisses Madison) then makes his way back to his bed where he falls asleep clutching a photo of Rachel
I wanna lay you down on a bed of roses
For tonight Id sleep on a bed of nails
I wanna be just as close as the Holy Ghost is
And lay you down, on a bed of roses.
The next afternoon
Ross knocks on Monica and Chandlers door he has Madiosn with him
CHANDLER: oh hey Ross, come on in
ROSS: Hey guys about last nite
CHANDLER: forget about it, its old news
ROSS: no, I want to say this and I need you both to listen without interrruping
ROSS: Heres the deal. Everything you said last nite was true. Im in no conditon to take care of Madison right now, I can barely care for myself. I want to go away for a couple of months to think and clear my head. I want the two of you to keep Madison while Im gone
MONICA: for how long
ROSS: I dont know, until I can find closure, this is so hard for me to deal with, I loved her so much, she was my soulmate, and I thought wed have our whole lives together, and each day I try, I try so hard to face up to the fact that she is gone, to get on with life and I cant do it.
CHANDLER: are you sure you want us to take her, what about your parents or Rachels parents?
ROSS: no, it has to be your guys, thats what Rachel would want, do you remember when you guys told us about your situation
MONICA: you mean about not being able to have children?
ROSS: yeah. Well Rachel made a comment about wanting to do something for you, and later that night she cried in my arms and said she felt so guilty about having a baby when you couldnt and that she would do anything to make you feel better. I know she would want you two to watch Madison for me
MONICA: in that case, we would be glad to do it.
ROSS: ok Ill bring her stuff on over then, here is her diaper bag and some clothes and I will be back with the rest, thanks again you guys(leaves
CHANDLER: so looks like were going to have a baby for awhile
MONICA: yep, sure looks that way.
CHANDLER: so I guess we need to get a room ready for her
MONICA: Oh my god youre right and I need baby food and extra diapers and
CHANDLER: calm down, Ross will bring stuff over, lets see what we have before we go buying crazy
MONICA: youre right, Ill try to calm down
CHANDLER: please do
3 months later
Joey is hanging out over at Monica and Chandlers
The three of them are just sitting around the living room and Madison is on a blanket on the floor kicking her feet and laughing-shes now 6 months old.
PHOEBE: hey guys
CHANDLER: oh hey Pheebs
PHOEBE: I grabbed your mail for you(hands it to Monica)
MONICA: thanks Pheebs(starts shuffling through the mail) Bill, Bill, junk, Bill, oh, oh my god its a letter from Ross
CHANDLER: Its about time, I thought he said hed only be gone a month at the most.
PHOEBE: are you going to tell us what the letter says?
MONICA: (opens the letter) ok he says he is sorry he has not written and that he hopes we are doing well and oh my god!!
JOEY: what, what
MONICA: he says that he doesnt think he can deal with Madison and he wants us to keep her, he is going on an archeology dig in Egypt and leaves next on Wednesday
PHOEBE: thats in two days
MONICA: I know
PHOEBE: so call him and talk to him, tell him he needs to raise his own daughter
MONICA: I cant he didnt leave a forewarding address or phone number
PHOEBE: whoa, so you guys are going to keep Madison then
MONICA: apparently So, I mean what else can we do
PHOEBE; well how long is this dig for?
MONICA: 4 months
PHOEBE: I bet hell go on the dig, do some scientist type work and then come back, refreshed and ready to pick up Maddy
MONICA: Im sure youre right and Id be lying if I said I wasnt happy to have her for another 4 months
6 months later, its Madisons 1st birthday. Everyone is there including Ben, Jack, Judy, Leonard and Sandra. Monica has decoreated the apartment with pink, white, purple and yellow balloons and a banner that says Happy First Birthday Madison Madison is sitting in her highchair with a small cake in front of her. Her eyes are the same color as her moms and her hair is Honey Blond.
PHOEBE: hes going to call
MONICA: Im not thinking about that
PHOEBE: yes you are, you keep looking at the phone, you are wondering if Ross is going to call his daughter on her birthday
MONICA: yeah, yeah I am. Its been 6 months, 6 month since he sent that letter and 9 months since he last saw her.
PHOEBE: I know, but this is Madisons day. Just concentrare on enjoying that
MONICA: I know, I know, Im trying
(she goes over and stands next to Madison) Ok sweetie are you ready? (begins singing and everyone joins in)
Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday Dear Madison, Happy Birthday to you
Madison reaches her hand out and touches the cake, she licks a little off her finger then looks around the room and smiles as she plunges her little fists into the cake and laughs happily
Now we see a montague of the next few months
Madison toddling across the room and clapping her hands as she runs to Monicas outstretched arms
Madison Crying in her sleep and Chandler picking her up and rocking her as she snuggles in his arms. Monica comes in the room and smiles at the two of them
Monica pushing Madison down the street in her stroller
Madison toddling around the neighborhood on Halloween ringing doorbells and getting candy.
Thanksgiving, with the whole group(minus Ross) around the table laughing and talking, Everone groaning as Chandler once again tells his worst Thanksgiving ever story
Madison ripping open her presents on Christmas day and toddling around examing the Tree.
Monica sharing the season of Hanukah with Chandler and lighting the Candles as Madison watches enthralled by the flickering lights of the candles
Chandler and Madison building a snowman, Madison picking up snow and eating it and Chandler doing the same, until Monica comes over and yells at him for being unsanitary
May 2004(Madisons 2nd birthday)
Its the evening after her party and shes been put to bed
MONICA: Chandler I was thinking
CHANDLER: did it hurt
MONICA: ha ha
CHANDLER: what about
MONICA: I want to adopt Madison
MONICA: I want to adopt her, to give her our last name, to make her our child, if we did that we could get better health benefits for her, we could take out a better life insurance policy etc..
CHANDLER: but what about Ross
MONICA: its been over a year, face it hes not coming back
CHANDLER: I know hes not, but dont we need his permission
MONICA: I dont know, but can we at least talk to someone and find out
CHANDLER: yeah Il make an appointment with a lawyer
MONICA: thank you(They kiss)
A week later, Monica and Chandler are getting ready to go to the lawyers to see about the name change.
MONICA: Ok Maddy mommy and daddy will be back soon(she calls them mom and dad because she is only 2yrs old and they are the only parents she has ever known) and you are going to go visit Phoebe
MONICA: but you like Phoebes remember, she gives you lots of cookies
MADDY: no, me no wear dis dess
MONICA: sweetie you look so cute in your dress
MADDY: no, no ugwy
MONICA: It is not ugly, silly girl
MADDY: no, no bwon shoes wit it
MONICA: you have to wear shoes
MADDY: no, no, no, match
CHANDLER: she is saying her shoes dont match
MONICA: two years old and already giving fashion advice, this is definitely Rachels child
CHANDLER: I know, she acts more and more like her every day
MONICA: well she has you wrapped around her little finger thats for sure
We see Monica and Chandler in the lawyers office discussing the adoption.
MONICA: so we can adopt her
LAWYER: yes, you need to go before the judge but Im almost postive you will get permission to do so, the only thing is, since you cannot reach the father if he ever comes back he can contest it. But since it has been almost 2yrs I really wouldnt worry to much about that
CHANDLER: so when would we go before the judge?
LAWYER: there is an opening on the roster in 3 wks
MONICA: oh my god, that would be great
LAWYER: All right Ill see you back in 3 weeks and youll have the paperwork together that is needed
MONICA: yes sir we will
(they shake the lawyers hand and leave)
JUDGE: Ive read your request and looked over all the paperwork Mr and Mrs Bing and I see no problems
MONICA: you mean shes ours
JUDGE: yes, I am granting you custody, this child will henceforth be known as Madison Rachel Bing. But also be aware if the father ever comes back he will have all the rights to contest this adoption and to demand her back
MONICA: I understand, but he is my brother and im sure hell understand why we did this
JUDGE: very well, I just need you to sign some forms
(Monica and Chandler advance to his chair and sign the paperwork)
MONICA(looks at Chandler and smiles) shes ours shes really ours
CHANDLER: I know